for you

i don't need a simple sympathy
because it's not being worthy
that don't need to worry
that i need to bury.

even the war continues and never end
i would never feel at ease and never pretend
still i'm the one who will let it finish
until one of us will definitely vanish.

it's not a threat for you as my hater
but this is my answer for a pretender
even you surrender and starting to suffer
i won't let it fade and consider.

the crack won't fade even you pick a single piece
until you put it back just to be in place
even the two of us is already know who's real and who is not
i don't care if you're totally hurt.

sorry for you i don't give a second chance 
you have no choice but to accept my remembrance
even your crying with blood
i won't easily let go and lower my pride.

mensahe ko sayo

sumuko man ang isa ngunit ayaw tapusin ang lahat
pinipilit makuha ang atensyon kaya't siya'y nagu-umpisang magkalat
ayaw magpadaig sa sinumang gusto makaharap
kahit na ang isang katulad mo'y mahilig mangarap.

sinara na ang huling pahina ng aklat
ngunit pilit paring binubuklat
ayaw magpatalo sapagkat alam na nasa tama
na ang totoo wala talagang panama.

hindi man maintindihan ang una kong ginawa
wala akong pakialam kahit ikaw'y magmaka-awa
dahil hindi pa natatapos ang lahat 
kahit pilitin pang umangat.

pilit mang ibalik ang dating samahan
huwag na lang umasa dahil wala ng pagkakataon
na ikaw mismo ang dahilan kaya nagkaron ng lamat
kahit pilit mang ayusin ang lahat
hindi ko na lang iisipin na ganon ang nangyari
sapagkat hindi mo pag-aari ang lahat ng kasalungat.

hindi ko na iisipin ang isang katulad mo
sapagkat nung una palang hindi ka nagpakatotoo
sa mga bagay na aking ginawa

kahit muntik ka na mapariwara.

ang hatol para sa mga hudas

magsama man kayo para ako'y pabagsakin
mag-isip muna kayo bago niyo gawin
hindi ako basta-basta magpapadaig
sa mga katulad niyo na walang ginawa kundi ang magligalig.

alam ang salitang respeto ngunit nakalimutan
dahil biglang nagbago ang ihip ng hangin
nalason man ang utak ng iba
hindi parin magawang magpaka-kumbaba.

pinipilit i-angat ang sariling estado
ngunit hindi parin magiging respetado
bagkus ay naging desperado
dahil sa isang motibo
kaya't ika'y naging bobo.

hindi alam ang totoong dahilan kung bakit ka naging ganyan
sapagkat ang alam ko'y ako ay nagpakatotoo
samantalang ang sayo'y may bahid ng kasamaan
at nagi-isip ng masama
kahit ika'y walang panama.

nangangarap na ako'y paluhudin ng mga kaaway
matutuwa ang isang katulad ko at sama-sama kayong mamamatay
sa kamay ng isang tahimik pero grabe kung umatake
hangga't kayo'y nasa mundong ibabaw
hinding-hindi kayo makakaligtas
dahil nasa kamay ko ang batas.

a message for haters 2

your insecure even i'm not famous
you attempt to stab me because of being jealous
even you want me to be your friend
but i rather want you to get crucified.

i've treated you as someone
but in return you've treat me being no one
the personality is filled with envy
until it became hatred.

every move you did is being watch
but someone want to be attach
even your damn wrong
you didn't admit the sin as a human being.

you have no right to complain
even you explain and let it remain
this is my answer for the two of you because of being arrogant and rude
instead never let your guard down co'z i won't stop until you bleed.

mercy is for the weak
that be cannot be un-break
for the things you did
until you became morbid.

hate me for the rest of your life even i didn't care
i won't listen for every single word from a douchebag and a whore
co'z i'll keep on attacking even more.

this is just the beginning of my non-stop revenge
even you didn't have the advantage
it won't be fair enough to realize
co'z in reality you've been criticize.

mensahe sa taong nagpapanggap

trato ko sa katulad mo ay totoo
samantalang sayo ay may bahid ng pagiging inggitero
kaya't nagmu-mukha kang mang-mang at inutil
kaya't pilit kitang gusto itakwil.

sa ugaling mali na sayo mismo nagmula
kahit hindi ko na gawin na isang pabula
sapat na ang kagaya nito sa isang katulad mong peke
kahit ika'y magwala at magligalig wala parin akong paki.

tinanggap ka ng buong-buo
pero hindi ka nagpakatotoo
sa kabutihang kapalit
kaya't ika'y unti-unting pumapangit.

nagtataka kung bakit ganon ang inasal
kahit ang itura mo'y mukhang sinasakal
huwag itago ang iyong totoong mukha
ilabas ang totoong itsura na mismong nasa taas ang lumikha.

magsuot ka man ng maskara ay hindi parin maitago
ang iyong sariling baho na ikaw mismo ang nagumpisa at nagpaka-g@#o
bigla kang bumaligtad dahil sa isang bagay na alam ng karamihan
ang ipadama sa taong mali ang totoong nararamdaman.

epekto ng pagiging inlove

hindi makapag-isip ng mga bagay-bagay
kaya't ngayon ay hindi mapalagay
laging tulala at madalas nakatingin
sa kalangitan at sa mga bituin.

iniisip kung ano ang gagawin
kahit pakiramdam ko'y parang tumitigil ang orasan
pati ang aking mundo
kahit hindi ako sigurado.

isang bagay ang tangi kong alam kaya't nagkakaganito
dahil ako'y napana at na-inlove sayo
na ngayo'y matindi ang epekto sa aking pagkatao
pati sa kaluluwa ko.

ayokong matapos agad sa ganito ang lahat
dahil hindi naman yun ang dapat
kaya't susulitin ko na bago pa matapos
habang hindi pa ko kinakapos.

walang katulad ang nararamdaman
at walang nakakaalam kahit sino man
sa mundong ating ginagalawan
pangako na ikaw ang gustong makasama kahit saan.

unang tingin

unang sulyap ko palang
bigla akong na-praning
at hindi alam ang gagawin
nang bigla kang masilayan.

hindi pa man nagkakaron ng magandang usapan
alam kong magkakaron ng pagkakataon
kahit hindi hintayin
asahan mong darating parin
nang hindi namamalayan.

kahit hindi mo alam at maramdaman
puso ko'y biglang napana ni kupido ng hindi ko napapansin
kaya't ang nangyari lagi akong kulang sa tulog
at muntikan ng mahulog.

ang nararamdaman ay totoo kahit hindi mo pa alam
okay lang kung di mo ramdam
ang bagay na gusto kong marinig mula sayo
huwag lang ako magmukhang tuyo.

walang dahilan para ako'y magkagusto
sa isang katulad mo na daig pa ang santo
kaya't hindi pwede gumawa ng milagro
at maging mapaglaro.

kung sakaling palarin sayo
at makuha ang matamis mong oo
tatawagin ko ang lahat ng santo
dahil ako'y magsasaya at magbubunyi
sapagkat binigay sakin ang isang katulad mo.

a message for kisses

for the girl who made me suffer for almost 8 years

i thought the feelings is forever
in the end it became after
even in the first place were truly in love for each other
even though i have no time to recover
still i strive just to revive.

the relationship that never be told
that never to hold
even it's undone
your the one who make it done.

no need to say sorry
for the unfinished poem that i'm about to write long ago
even you didn't know in the first place
you don't need to worry.

you've left me with hatred and agony
that took 8 years to move on
even it's hard for me
in the end it's being worthy.

the last chapter of our lives already end
that i don't want to rewind
forever i will let it fade
even you didn't said.

sakit na iyong iniwan

walang kaalam-alam kung ano talaga ang totoong dahilan
una mong sinabi ay ayaw sa akin ng iyong pinsan
napaisip bigla at bakit pati siya nasama sa problema
kahit alam kong hindi na tama.

ang mga salita na iyong binibigkas
at pinipilit maging mapagmataas
kahit ako'y tinutulak palayo
pero pinipilit parin maging tayo.

ngunit ako'y nabigo na maging maayos ang lahat
pinamukha sakin na ako'y hindi karapat-dapat
kahit ang sarili ko'y pinipilit
hanggang sa ikaw ay nagalit.

ginawa ang lahat ng paraan para ako'y iwasan
hanggang sa ako'y iniwan
kaya't ako'y naging tuliro
at naging talunan sa laro na alam mong ikaw ang laging panalo.

lumipas ang ilang buwan bago nagkaron ng pagkakataon
akala ko'y okay na ang lahat para sakin
pero hindi parin napawi ang sakit na aking nararamdaman
kaya't hindi agad nakabangon
sa sakit na iyong binagay sa buo kong pagkatao
kahit matagal ko ng tinanggap na ako'y talo.

pinipilit ibalik ang dati
pero sadyang ako parin ang nahihirapan
kahit nagmukha akong tanga sa una palang
hindi ko inisip na ako'y isang mang-mang.

pumayag ka man bumalik sakin pero hindi ako pumayag
sa gusto mong desisyon na alam mong ika'y may babalikan
kaya't ako'y lalong nainis dahil sa iyong inasal
kahit hindi ko na ipagdasal
ang lahat ng iyong ginawa at hindi naging totoo
sa aking nararamdaman alang-alang sayo.

binaon ko man sa limot ang lahat
ngunit kulang at hindi pa sapat
kaya't ngayon ay nangingibabaw ang galit
huli na para ika'y umamin
hindi rin ako makikinig kahit ano pa ang iyong gawin.

Autobiography of 10

Born in Manila and grew up in San Pedro, Laguna. Second to the eldest and only son of Armando and Ma.Teresa. Every year that came into my life is unfair because sometimes it’s okay sometimes it won’t. I’m the type of person who doesn’t talk much when it comes to everything, including myself, my inner thoughts, my greatest dream and my emotions.

An average student throughout my academic life but have a Extra-curricular activities like basketball, skateboarding, badminton, etc. were my favorite things. As far as I remember through the activities that I love it’s about striving because if you want something, try everything to get it even sometimes I have frustrations or to stop for the things that I love.

The first extreme sport that I tried is inline skate(street and flatland) after that I’ve switch to aggressive inline skate(ramps, rails, ledge) because it’s my passion on that sport that no one can ever take it from me while I’m still alive. Time pass by and the scene of aggressive inline skate became few and I feel bad about it, but before I quit on the sport that I love I struggled a lot just to be a better inline skater, I strive to kill a trick that’s impossible but in the end I succeed no matter what because that’s me.

After I accomplished something on my favorite sport I’ve decided to quit badly because I want to try skateboarding even though I’m back to zero again but it’s okay, many problems came when I try skateboarding because the set-up is expensive even it’s second hand, I’ve been skating for almost 8 years but nothing happened, some tricks came but it’s too late sometimes I want to kill a trick after watching a few skate videos on my computer but It didn’t work because of the mood of myself or the pressure inside me but I keep on striving again just to prove something that I can do it. While focusing on my second extreme sport I got bored but still I didn’t quit again because I want to try something new for myself like poetry, I’ve finished my first poem but with lot of mistakes but it’s okay, I used to write again until someone ask me if I’m a writer, my answer is “Writing is just my hobby that’s all”. While writing so many poems I ask myself “is this really a hobby or just a passion” my answer is I don’t know because as long as I exist my mind won’t stop thinking for some ideas.

I write when I’m upset, I write when someone rejects me because of love, thanks for my way of thinking to forget everything that happen in my life I feel relieved.

I’ve read some humor book to lessen the pressure of writing and to get some ideas of the other author, the first humor book that I read is Bob Ong books, second is Suplado Tips by Stanley Chi, third The Kikiam Experience by Jay Panti, fourth the book of Ramon Bautista and last the book of Tado Jimenez.

I love to read books but humor books is still the best, sometimes I read some other books just to learn, after reading over and over I’ve tried to write narrative and short story for the first time but still my sport is still active, I just write when something pop up in my head that’s all.

Unexpected event happen while I’m on a birthday celebration, a friend of mine ask me if I want to continue skateboarding, my answer is yes but he’s answer is unexpected:

“if aggressive inline is your passion, why don’t you try it again” he said.

I answered nicely.

“I don’t know if I can do the same things that I do way back then, but I’ll try and don’t expect too much when I get back”

“Don’t worry were still your friends” he said.

After that conversation I’ve decided to try aggressive inline once again, I can still do the things that I do, some things added my tricks are getting good, the urge to become better still runs through my veins even sometimes I fail but I stood up and try it again, in the end I succeed and I got the people’s attention and people’s respect because a lot of them knew that aggressive inline ain’t easy.

Until now my passion in aggressive inline continues no matter what, even I didn’t go out and roll the street but still it won’t affect me.

I know some people thinks rollerblading is gay well think before you said that because aggressive inline is hard in the first place and the only secret about it is enjoy and don’t overdo it because it might take you to serious injury.

unidentified message

humingi ka man ng apology pero huli na, saka mo lang na-realize na ako talaga yung gumawa ng ninakaw mo dapat nung una palang nagbigay ka na ng credits sakin pero saka mo lang ginawa.

para sayo lahat ng nilalaman nito kaya huwag kang kukurap kahit anong mangyari.

you think your famous just to be recognize
even in reality you'd been criticize
for the things to be un-known
that you would never be thrown.

the crime you made that will never be fade
for stealing someone's work without permission
now i'm hunting you down
even you don't want to admit the sin.

i won't stop until you deserve you're wrong
even i keep on stabbin
until you stop screamin
you won't feel relief
because your guilty.

your name is hidden as unidentified
i'll beat you with my bare hands and then crucified
your personality thick as your face
i'm leaving you without a trace.

innocence won't work
but the truth is real not a fake
you won't get any respect
even your damn perfect.

it's just getting started
it won't stop until you're barely dead
even if you tried
too late you'd died.

the negative effect

i know your truly happy
for the things that you received
and still you believe
for not being empty.

enjoying life to the fullest
unlike me miserable and clueless
but still hoping for the positive
don't want to be negative.

if your decision is already made
i'm starting to let it fade
the story that being untold
that will never be hold.

even if we meet just to thank me for things that i have done
the feelings that i felt will never be undone
even i'm totally hurt and pretending
i'll reply with a fake smile.

maybe this is my fate after all
to be hurt and suffer then i fall
i don't want to recall
for calling me a fool
even in the first place i became a tool.

unsaid feelings

time flies by the two of us
even it will never be last
i won't ask for another chance
it's better for the both of us to be friends.

even in the first place i'm totally hurt
i've already accept my fate
even it's too late
i would rather be suffocate.

i've listen everytime for every words you said
including your heartaches and hatred
in the end i'm still here
even your not aware.

you reject me once but that's okay
co'z it's my fault anyway
even i said something weird 
you'd ignore and you didn't heard.

maybe this is it
it's impossible to retreat
you don't want to quit
to the things that make it sweet
the things that made you happy
even a guy like is left behind and un-happy.

babaeng paasa 2

inamin ang totoong nararamdaman 
ngunit ang iyong ginawa ay paasahin ang taong humahanga
kaya't sa huli nagmukhang tanga
habang ang katulad mo'y tuwang-tuwa.

nagpapanggap na malinis kahit ang laway mo'y mukhang panis
kaya't ang iba'y sayo ay naiinis
sa ugaling iyong inaasta
kaya maraming sayo'y nagbabanta.

iniisip sa iyong sarili na ika'y kinababaliwan
pero ang totoo sayo'y walang nagkakagusto
pagkatapos malaman ang iyong ugali
kaya't ngayon hindi ka mapakali.

natutuwa sa larong alam mong ikaw ang madalas manalo
ngunit ang totoo takot kang matalo
kahit huli na ay nagagawa pang lumusot
kahit ang mukha mo'y nagugusot.

nagpapanggap kang matalino ngunit ang totoo isa kang mang-mang
na kahit ano pa ang iyong gawin hinding-hindi ka makakala-lamang
mabasa mo man o hindi ang nilalaman ng aking ginawa wala akong pakialam
dahil alam kong wala ka namang pakiramdam.