the negative effect

i know your truly happy
for the things that you received
and still you believe
for not being empty.

enjoying life to the fullest
unlike me miserable and clueless
but still hoping for the positive
don't want to be negative.

if your decision is already made
i'm starting to let it fade
the story that being untold
that will never be hold.

even if we meet just to thank me for things that i have done
the feelings that i felt will never be undone
even i'm totally hurt and pretending
i'll reply with a fake smile.

maybe this is my fate after all
to be hurt and suffer then i fall
i don't want to recall
for calling me a fool
even in the first place i became a tool.